Dyke Dialogues

A friend of mine who is one of the organizers invited me to come to this activity. I haven't attended one before and I am quite excited. If you are interested for a worthwhile discussion, please do come. Just read the details below:

Rainbow Rights Project (R-Rights), Inc., in cooperation with Radar Pridewear and The LWord Manila Meetup Group, will be holding its second informal chat/FGD this month, entitled "Dyke Dialogues: A Rainbow Exchange on Identities and Partnerships". It will be held on 20 October 2007, Saturday at the Radar Pridewear Roofdeck, FBR Arcade (above Yellow Cab), 317 Katipunan Avenue, Quezon City.

Aimed at reaching out to the young members of the LGBT Community, R-Rights members will be joined by veteran Lezz activists who want to interact with the new Lezz generation.

The activity will be a light discussion on gender identification and relationship dynamics and how these issues determine the Philippine LGBT advocacy landscape.

RSVP to (0917) 8870501.

porky challenge

I decided to join on my coworkers little game called porky challenge last week. The objective of the game is to lose weight. I was excited to join since I had been waiting for this kind of opportunity for me to get a support group in losing weight. I am always on a constant struggle about my weight. I was so skinny during my childhood however,started gaining weight when I was in 3rd grade up to now. My current weight..whooping 260 lbs and I only stand 5'2 1/2.

The registration fee cost me P500 and every week we have to weight in and if we gain a pound we will pay P50 per pound. I have a good start. I only ate 1 square meal (breakfast) and brought fruits in the office to be eaten the whole shift if I will be hungry. Then, I won't eat anymore when I go home.

Btw, my starting weight before the challenge is 258 lbs (Monday, Oct 1). Last Friday, I was so excited to see if I lose any weight because I felt good and so light which I haven't felt for a long time. So I went to the office clinic and see for myself. I did lose a pound and made me so happy that I decided to celebrate my birthday. hehehe. Initially, I was contemplating not to celebrate it because I need to save money for the renovation of my parent's dilapidated house and also it means I have to prepare delectable foods which are high on fats plus drinking alcohol which is equal to more calories and a busted diet.

Weekends came and I was drunk for 3 days in a row. Yesterday we weight in and I was not surprised when I hit 260 lbs. I was so disappointed and sad which made me ate more when I got home. I hate this hideous cycle. Whenever I am sad and not feeling well, I will eat till I feel like vomiting. P U T A N G I N A!!!

point black

Dark is the night
Shadows all over me
Time is ripe
Still virtue I can't see

Silence only left
Ice within me
Nothing I feel
Dead as i can be...

Summary

I missed you
That I was sure
I craved
But I failed

I longed
But I remained thirsty
Soon my throat draught
Swallowing was next to impossible

Fire subsided
Smoke had been long gone
Coldness only left
Made my heart to stone

No more magic
No more sweet music
Nor butterflies on my belly
Or twinkling stars on my eyes

Then I decided
I told
You caught surprised
Soon you realized

You cried
I sighed
Then I left
With goodbye...

I wonder

I wonder...
I wonder.. how it would be in your hand..
I wonder.. how smooth your skin would be under my palm..
I wonder.. how soft your lips would be into mine..
I wonder.. how ecstatic it would be making love to you through the night..

love or hate?

I am swimming in the ambivalent waves of love and hate
Drowning on the barren dessert of your bode
Nothing grows only the bleak clouds hanging above my head
Ready to pour rain at any moment
You drive me mad with the unquenchable thirst you brought
Leaving my soul aflame with desire
Nothing soothed..
Nothing consoled..

for cupid

love are you for real?
or just sort of illusion
running on my mind

love why can't i feel you?
believe me i tried
but you are nowhere to be found

love oh love
can't you see im desperately ill?
I need you here by my side

love please stop hiding
I'm too tired chasing
my heart is already dying..